Friday, April 27, 2007
" Ehhhhh
I am not together with W okay!!!
Let me explain: We were seen at Mac on a Wednesday together alone because, apparently, SOMEONE pang seh-ed me. And we are in the same class, so it is natural we are seen around each other!
And if you know me well enough, you'd know me and him are from totally different worlds!
I didn't know rumours spread within nanoseconds. I feel so watched!!! T.T why why why. Oh lol.
I am still single, alone, by myself, hoping a nice guy will come and tell me he feels the same way, and and...yeah you get the idea.
Very much single. :) "
this was taken from miko's blog. ok i did promise her that i will clarify sth. but havent had the time to do so.. busy with dance etc.. okok.. that wednesday, yesh my class supposed to go MACS for breakfast.. W is the one who asked. so miko, me and W.. supposed to eat together.. but u know.. that tue, dance ended at 10pm and i reach home super late, slept at 1am++? yah and i couldnt wake up the next morning.. was even late for school even though it starts at 8.30am so obviously i unintentionally "pahseh" them.. overslept. and yesh the SOMEONE mentioned is ME! haha. oppps .. i'm SO SO SORRY MIKO! do you still love me? haha..
kidnap me. please
Thursday, April 26, 2007
hahaend of SYF. and can u believe it? haha MJC DANCE SOCIETY GOT A GOLD! =D im so happy lah. yeah really proud of every single one of my dancers..
a dance group with only 2 seniors with dance background.. no techniques.. but yeah we did our very very best =)
this journey isnt easy..
bruises, cuts, injuries, tears, sweat, insults, scoldings, ups and downs..
trained till 9pm, 10pm... come back on sats..
we've made it! =D thanks to our instructors, ms wee e-chiing and mr zaki! haha
before the competition, we were so screwed. faizal had to go home last min.. high fever. so last min change a bit of the formation.. deborah nose-bleed. everyone's just sick lah...
determination. i guess
thanks for all the encouragements along the way... and all the smses before/after the competition.
-mr brandon gohel, thanks for listen to all my complaints online.. always there when im down =) helping me with my school work, helping me to plan my time properly, cheering me up (by acting cute) haha.. okok joking.
-ms cheyenne chua, thanks for that sms u sent the night just before the competition. i really feel encouraged and yea.. it sorta motivated me to do my best. =))
-zihao, haha... not forgetting u lah. didnt expect u to remember my SYF date and send me a good luck msg the night before.. the one who's always there online.. waiting for me to throw questions at him.. and also the one who will never block me no matter how irritating i am (hahahah) imagine u finished ur As.. but still have to solve questions for someone. thanks for helping me with my studies!! haha. anyway congrats for getting straight As for A-level! 2 U but it's S-paper so yea.. who cares. how i wish im like that. =)
-MCS!!!! thanks for all ur support!
-ain! yea.. dance like it's ur last time dancing =)
-jade! thanks for remembering gal! i miss u! miss tp!
-reny
-miko (sorry.. think ive been irritating u for the past few weeks haha)
-tianhon (yeayea thanks for laughing at me. HMPH)
-willie (u too!)
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-desheng
-jonathan
-clara
-kenneth
thanks for all ur wonderful smses!!! LOVE U ALL! =D
(someone's sick. pls pls take care)
kidnap me. please
Thursday, April 19, 2007
CONGRATULATIONS TO MJ GUITAR!
they got GOLD for syf.. well done miko, aretha, dominic!
im so so proud of u..
MCS too..
how i hope dance will.. u know. haha. im stressed!!!! im literally getting bloodshot eyes now.. even without putting on makeup. jon said i've become skinner? HAHA..
.. ok we can do it =D
anyway history repeated itself.. again
NAPFA today...
2.4km run - A
shuttle run - A
Sit and Reach - A
Situps - A
Inclined Pull up - A
SBJ - D
argh!!!! it's forever like that.. and because of that D.. i got a
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how i wish he will be here for me.. this period of time.. it's still u.. the one i miss..
kidnap me. please
Thursday, April 12, 2007
heh. 2.4km today.. just as expected. i was the last for the first 2 rounds.. time taken to run the first run: 2.50 mins! last round: 50secs! but now the diff is that.. the gap between me and the 2nd last person was so much wider than before. yea managed to catch up after my 3rd round =) was ranked 1st for those running with my class.. 201, 305, 101 think that's all haha. oh well becos there isnt any kayakers! haha.
so dr rahman came in to my class during chem tutorial and lectured us. so my class was expected to be smart? with an average L1R5 of 10.5 ?! one of the lowest in the whole school? so that's why our expected ranking for chem is 4th?! so we are supposed to perform?! ok fine.
so this is chem
and maths.. ms chua came to me and wants me to swap with tianhon.. so i have to go Lt4 from tmr onwards and he goes Lt5 =X but the thing is.. if i swap with him.. i cant get mr neo at all! BOO! haha. and yea lt4 finished the lecture notes till page 13 and lt5, page 10.. so today ms chua actually stayed back and teach me that 3 pages.. so that i can go LT4 tmr =X haha.
and dance.. scared. MCS trained so hard (even harder than us) and they got a silver.. im scared!!
oh and after dance.. we were scandaling karl and hazel! LOL... okok.. shall not mention the details here.. but it's funny at what happened on the bus. at first he was sitting with me then he moved to sit infront of her to see her better! WAHHA. ok.
i still miss you. but i know u still cant face me.. thanks for at least trying to talk to me today..
kidnap me. please
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
just tired. Just scared. U know how it feels? No, u don't. u just don’t get it. It's just me alright? It hurts, but so? been eating laksa, curry, tomyam.. etc recently.. i dont know why.
perhaps... just wanna forced out the tears..that ive been holding back.. im like.. emotionless now.. want to cry badly, want to scream my lungs out.. but i cant.. Numb to my surroundings. Scandalous, flirtatious, insensitive. I cant be bothered anymore. Im just me.
Like it, good for you.
Don’t like it, go away.
its like a first attempt at something youre not even sure of. its like stepping into a whole new zone. some call it crossing boundaries. some call it a new experience. whereas others love to term it as just an excuse from escaping from reality. now its your turn to tell me how scary it feels to be me. and here i am killing all my brain cells
there's over a million and one things going on at this point of time. but certain memories are still etched close to your heart and mind - as much as you dont want them to. there are some things that id like to figure out, and there are some things i cant do without. like you and you alone, and the people that were never friends. with all the things you could be, you never could learn how to be. and when im finally done with thinking, then im finally done with you.
i really didnt come this far for you to make it this hard for me
i'm feel like i'm getting shorter. guide me and show me the way. what am i supposed to do? why does it drive me nuts. i never thought i'd be this way, yet that's what's happening to me. why do i feel like i'm screwing things up each time? why do i have so many doubts? why is it that my emotions veer from one end to the other each time? set me free. i miss the times when everything was simple and happy. why does it matter so much to me? why does every little thing affect me... and i thought i'd be able to avoid this. and i thought i was the one who didn't really expect anything. but now. when did i start caring so much? when did it start affecting me so badly?
Mentally drained
Emotionally tired
Physically worn out.
kidnap me. please