Wednesday, September 13, 2006
i guess i just need time. sticks and stones may break my bones... but words hurt too, from within. they break the heart.
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight...yea i just shouldnt
just go
promises
the ones that keep me going.
the ones that make sure no matter how much i've changed, i do things my way.
the ones that make sure i don't do things that end up breaking a promise, that would result in me lying.
maybe
people keep promises so they won't end up hurting the ones whom they've made the promise to.
or maybe.
i'm just being insolent and foolish.
and i haven't grown up
sometimes i feel like gravity is working overtime.
the corners of my lips are getting pulled down subconsciously, i blame it on the extra pull of gravity.
when your world's all topsy-turvy, when everything around you is changing, you just want some things to stay the same, to be stable. to be your pillar of strength, your source of comfort, something you can rely on to feel safe and secure when everything's upside-down and all around. well, i want that.but you can't always get the things you want. in fact, it seems you can't ever get the things you really want.
wuss, wimp, whatever. call me whatever you want, it's just that it's this period of time i wanna hide somewhere and be allowed to just cry. and have someone just hug me and let me feel secure. [not tell me everything's gonna be alright, coz we both know it won't. duh.] aaah!!! i'm not depressed k. it's just... i wanna just let me go
sorry
kidnap me. please