Saturday, April 22, 2006
just lies.. i knew it all along..
it won't be tainted by the ugliness now. and sometimes i wonder why one so close could feel so far away. why we can't talk anymore. why little things you do or say matter to me, yet you can't see. and why, you can't understand what i feel inside. and what, you're supposed to be the one that understands me best? well it sure doesn't seem that way. coz if you do, i wouldn't feel so sad right now. sad, that you can't understand me at all. sad, that we just don't see eye to eye no more. sad, that you matter more to me than i to you. sad, that you don't know how i feel, what i think inside.
and just coz i don't voice out the stuff that's troubling me, it doesn't mean i'm all fine and dandy. just coz i don't show it, doesn't mean i ain't squirming inside. and none of you know this. and all this time i'm just here, standing by the side, wondering what's going on in that mind of yours, wondering if there's perhaps this chance you'd let me inside. wondering if the moments we shared before, where we could still talk about everything to each other, were a thing of the past, and would remain that way.
well. whatever it is, i'm still here. just that shadow that's behind you as always, ready to catch you if you fall, if you let me. the shadow that'll always be here for you, even though you don't see me. even though it doesn't seem that way.
the shadow that's always gonna be one.
the shadow that's always here for you
the shadow that's passive.
the shadow that'll always be with you.
the shadow that's crumbling up within, behind you.
the shadow that's trying to be strong for you.
the shadow that seems to disappear when the sun comes up strong, yet is always there, smaller coz you don't need me.the shadow, that remains unseen
kidnap me. please