dig in my insecurities and youll understand why im behaving the way i do

Sunday, December 07, 2014

I miss you. when can you stop all these ambiguous relationship and come back to me official? I felt so burdened when I go out with you and your mom today at ikea.. so many times I feel like holding your hand and just hook your arm, but I cant. and you are always walking so fast, and Im just tagging behind..

I do not want to go with you to meet your friends anymore. Its not about being embarrassed. I just dont know how to react or how should I react.. I cant ask you to give me all your attention anymore. I cant ask you to make things less awkward for me. I am just a friend, damn it. You want me, but you dare not owe me. You want my company, but you do not want to commit.

kidnap me. please

Monday, September 15, 2008

Your dreams are a vision of where you will be after the battle,
your prize at the end of your journey to success.
Your goals are the steps you take to finally attain your prize.

Unless you ‘re willing to work hard and establish some discipline in your life,
All of your dreams will be pipe dreams,
little mental fantasy trips that will never materialize.

Make concrete steps toward fulfilling your ultimate dream,
and start with solid objectives called goals.

Your dreams are where you want to go,
your goals are how you get there.

The indispensable first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: decide
what you want:

Don’t be afraid to think big and dare to be great.
Dreamers are not content with mediocrity.
They never dream of going halfway.

People with dreams and goals succeed because they know where they’re going.

everything is just path out nicely for me.. i do not have a vision or a dream.. since young, i've always taken the easy way out.. following the crowd..taking the safest route.. following my brother's footpath.. and only when i get the results.. then i will decide where or what i wanna do..
perhaps that's why i do not know how to get up once i fall.. i do not have a goal in life..

i've fallen.. hard. now.
and it took me almost a year to realise it..
stop dreaming, stop hoping for miracles to happen.. come back to reality..
made a toughest decision in my life.. took me much courage to make that..
and i need your support..

kidnap me. please

Saturday, August 16, 2008

kidnap me. please

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

on this special day.. just wanna take this chance to specially dedicate this post to..

the one who impacts my life..

the one who left a lasting legacy for me..

the one who is always there for me whenever i need..

remember the time when we did our very best to save dominic? taking out all our savings for him.. you are the one who comforted me, stayed with me whole night when dominic passed away.. in times of despair, you are there for me.

you excel in everything you do.. always striving for the best..

you are my role model.. even though we do not talk much or see each other much.. i know you care. thanks for everything you've done for me, bro.

Jia you, to be in the Flight Training, Adelaide.. to get shortlisted outta so many people is a dream come true for you. take care always..

lastly, HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY!!!

kidnap me. please

Sunday, July 27, 2008

ya've got no idea how much i love her! =D

kidnap me. please

Monday, July 21, 2008

sometimes, you just have to walk away. i know, we all hate to fail, hate to give in, hate to give up and that we love the challenge of life and want to keep on until whatever we are trying to 'win' has been overcomed, vanquished, beaten, won. but at times, it just aint gonna happen and we need to learn to recognize those moments, learn how to philosophically shrug and walk away with our pride intact and our dignity held high. afterall - its not your fault on your part.

sometimes you really want to do something and yet it is unrealistic. instead of knocking yourself out, cultivate the art of walking away and youll find that things will seem a lot less stressful. learn the art of walking away.

its not that we cant push ourselves and reached for the stars. its not that we cant pass the finish line in the shortest possible time. but because we're only humans and only want to fit in nicely. we're all just too lazy to go that extra mile. someone once told me - 'do your best in whatever you undertake, else you can just save the effort. ' for you and i both know, as much as it makes sense, majority of us behave otherwise.

and the past few days were no exception for me.not that i didnt predict my performances, but i guess i should have just known better. its not so much about the imperfection or flaws that im constantly rambling about.

its really about something good gone wrong. i realised, everytime i expect - the disappointment is always greater, no less.

kidnap me. please

Friday, July 11, 2008